Image courtesy of FNC Entertainment
Choa has just announced her intent to leave AOA.
The AOA member uploaded an Instagram post just now with a lengthy message explaining her choice to leave the group.
The following is a full translation of Choa’s message:
. 안녕하세요 초아입니다 저의 갑작스런 활동중단에 많은분들이 관심 가져주시고 걱정해주셔서 정말 감사했고 죄송했습니다 조금 늦었지만 제가 쉴수밖에 없었던 이유와 고민해서 내린 결정에 대해서 말씀드리고 싶어요. AOA라는 팀으로 데뷔하자마자 많은 사랑을받았던것이 아니기때문에 그만큼 사랑 받는다는것을 소중하게 느끼고 항상 감사하고 있었습니다. 팀에서 맏언니 였지만 아직 한참 어린 저는 활동을 해오면서 울고싶을때가 많았습니다. 하지만 저를 찾아주시는 이유는 밝은 저의 모습이라는것을 잘알고있었어요 마음은 울고있었지만 밝게만 보여야 하는 일이 반복되었고 스스로를 채찍질 할수록 점점 병들고있는 스스로를 발견 했었습니다. 불면증과 우울증을 치료하고자 약도 먹어보고 2년전부터 스케줄을 점점 줄여왔지만 피곤에서 오는 문제가 아니였기에 결국 모든활동을 중단하게 되었습니다 기다려주시는 분들을 떠올리며 복귀할수있도록 노력했지만 마냥 쉬고있는 상태로 부정적인 관심들이 지속되면 팀원들에게 더 많은 피해가 가게 될수 있다고 생각이들었습니다. 소속사와 협의 하에 저는 오늘 부로 aoa라는 팀에서 탈퇴하여 함께했던 멤버들의 활동을 응원하고자합니다. 연예인을 준비하고 활동했던 8년동안 많은것들을 배울수 있었다고 생각하고 힘들다고 생각하는 지금 이순간 조차 저를 성장시키는 과정이라고 생각이듭니다. 저는 올해 28살로 앞으로 혼란스러운 스스로를 차근차근 돌아보고 지난 8년간의 방송활동 이외에 남은 20대는 제 나이만큼의 넓은 경험들로 채워보고싶어요. 지금은 예정되어있던 개인활동 외에 활동은 생각하지 않고있는 상태로 언젠가 더이상 두렵지않고 지금보다 더 나아진 제 모습을 보여드릴 수 있을 때 그때에도 저를 응원해주시나면 분들이 계신다면 다시 돌아오고싶습니다. 많이 부족한사람인지라 그 와중에서도 끝까지 응원해주시고 걱정해주신많은 분들께 진심으로 애정어린 감사를 드립니다. 오랜시간 함께해온 멤버들 그리고 사랑받을수 있도록 부족한 점을 매꿔 주셨던 많은분들 , 그동안 저를 포함한 AOA를 사랑해주신 많은분들께 진심으로 감사드립니다.
Hello, this is Choa.
To everyone who took an interest in me despite my sudden halt in activities, I am thankful and also sorry. Though it’s a little late, I want to explain my reasons for why I had to rest and for the decision I’ve made.
Immediately after debuting as a part of AOA, we didn’t receive a lot of love, so I now feel just how precious it feels to receive love, and I was always thankful for it.
I was the oldest one on our team, but the younger me wanted to cry so many times while promoting. However, I was well aware that those who liked me, liked me for my bright disposition. My heart was crying, but the work I was doing required me to be perpetually bright, and the more I whipped myself into doing so the more sick I became.
I was diagnosed with insomnia and depression, and was medicated for it, and so starting from two years ago my schedules started being reduced, but because this was not a problem that resulted from simply being tired, in the end, all of my activities were halted.
With everyone who waited for me in mind I tried to return, thinking that if I rest forever, I would continue to receive negative criticism, and my team would suffer the damage as a result.
After discussing it with my agency, from today on I will be leaving AOA though I will continue to support the activities of my members.
I think that in the 8 years I spent preparing for and living life as a celebrity I learned a lot, and even thinking right now in this second that this is hard, it is process that is facilitating my growth. I am 28 this year, and from now on want to spend the remainder of my 20s experiencing the things that people my age should be experiencing outside of the last 8 years promoting on television, as I calmly try to return to myself out of this confusion.
I have no thoughts or plans for individual activities, but if someday I am no longer scared, and I become better, if there is anyone still out there supporting me, I would like to come back. Thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone who supported me to the end, despite all I am lacking. To my members who were with me for a long time up until now, and to everyone who looked past my inadequacies, and to everyone who loved AOA while I was a part of it, I sincerely thank you.
Despite the lengthy message, FNC Entertainment has just issued a statement claiming that nothing has been decided in regards to Choa’s future with AOA. A representative from the agency has just told the media, “As we are still discussing [Choa’s] departure from the group, nothing has officially been decided. We will make our decision after discussing our positions.”
More details surrounding Choa’s departure are sure to be revealed in the coming minutes, so be sure to stick around moonROK for more updates as this story continues to break.
Early this morning (around 7am KST), Sports Seoul released exclusive photos of what they claimed to be AOA’s Choa at the airport returning from a couple’s trip to Japan. The outlet claimed to have take then pictures at the airport when the couple returned from Japan in May, claiming that the man in the pictures is CEO Lee Suk Jin, who Choa has previously denied being in a relationship with.
Just an hour later, at approximately 8am KST this morning, Choa uploaded another Instagram post in reaction to the photos of Choa at the airport posted online earlier this morning. Below is the full translation of her new post:
많은 관심을 주실수록 여러 구설에 오를수있다는것은 알고있었지만 저는 임신도 하지않았고 낙태도 하지않았고 결혼을 하기위해 탈퇴하는것도 아닙니다. 연애하며 활동하시는 분들이 많고 연애하고 싶으면 밝히고 활동을 하면되는건데 왜 저의 탈퇴가 열애설이 연관지어지는지 모르겠습니다. 제가 친구도 많지 않은편이라 근래에 상대가 저에게 많은 힘이 되준건 사실입니다 앞으로 더 좋은 관계로 발전하게되면 연애하는 것은 잘못된 일이 아니니 얼마든지 솔직하게 말씀드리고 예쁜 만남을 갖겠습니다 정말 오랜시간 고민끝에 내린 탈퇴라는 힘든 결정인데 다른 문제가 연관지어지지 않았으면 합니다. 그간 계속해서 사진을 올리겠다고 해오셔서 정신적으로 많은 압박을 받아왔는데 오히려 이제 속이 시원하네요. 사진과 함께 올라온 오늘 기사에 저도 사진을 첨부하며 설명드리고 싶습니다. 마치 단둘이간 커플 여행인것처럼 기사가났지만 언니, 동생과 자매끼리 처음 가본 해외여행이었습니다. 중학교 1학년인 제 친동생이 그림 그리는것을 좋아하고 애니메이션을 좋아해 장래에 조금이나마 도움이 됬으면 하는 맘에 여행지를 일본으로 정하였습니다 어설프게 일본어를 할수있는 것도 저 뿐이고 가족들이 일본에 방문하는것이 처음이여서 제가 모든것을 담당해야 했었는데 스케줄을 제외하고 가본적이 없는 제가 일본어로 예약하고 여행지를 알아보는것은 너무 어려웠고 3년전부터 친하게지낸 지인에게 이것저것 묻게 됬었습니다. 지인이 일정이 겹치는날에는 가이드도 해주었고 돌아오는 길에는 시간도 늦고 짐도 많아 같은차로 배웅도 해주었던건데 그때 둘만있는 사진이 찍힌것 같습니다. 전에 첫번째 열애설기사가 났을때 기자님께서 전화로 사진이 찍히게된 경위에 대해 저에게 물으셔서 위 내용대로 설명드렸는데 ‘열애설전부터뜨거웠다’라는 자극적인 헤드라인으로 마치 단둘이간 여행처럼 오해를 살수있게 기사를 쓰신것은 좀 이해할수 없습니다. 또, 저는 탈퇴에 대한 고민과 논의를 오래전부터 회사에게 털어놓았었습니다 이년전에도 쉬면서 깊게 생각 해보라고 하셔서 길게 쉬기보기도 해봤었어요. 결국에 어제 대표님의 동의를 구하고 SNS을 작성했습니다. 올리기전 회사와 내용도 공유했고 제가 쓴글에 원치않으시는 내용은 삭제하라고하셔 의견을 반영하여 게시하였습니다. 탈퇴결정에 관련한 제 심경은 어제 SNS로 말씀 드렸고 제 탈퇴 SNS이후 또다시 불거진 논란에 멤버들이 피해 입지 않았으면 합니다. 많은분들께 좋지않은 소식과함께 아침부터 또한번 심려 끼쳐드려 죄송합니다.
I knew that all kinds malicious comments would probably be uploaded due to people’s interest, but I am not pregnant, I did not have an abortion, and I am not departing because I am getting married.
There are many people who date while promoting, and if you want to date you can announce it, so I don’t know why dating rumors are being associated with my departure [from AOA].
I’m not the type to have many friends, but it’s true that the ones I do have have given me so much strength lately. In the future if a good relationship grows, it’s not a crime to date, so I will honestly tell everyone and date prettily. Departing the group was a very difficult decision that I worried over for a long time, so it would be nice if you didn’t associate it with other problems.
For a long time people said they’d continue to upload pictures and I felt so pressured about it, but now I feel at ease. I want to explain about the pictures and articles that have been uploaded, as I too am in them. The articles say that we went on a trip together as a couple, but really, it was my first vacation with my older and younger sister, my siblings.
My little sister, who is a first year in middle school likes to draw and likes animation, so we decided to go to Japan thinking maybe it would help her, even if just a little bit, with her future.
I can awkwardly speak a bit of Japanese, and because it was my family’s first time in Japan I was supposed to be our representative for everything, and having never been to Japan outside of official promotional schedules, it was difficult to make all of the reservations and put everything together in Japanese, so I ended up asking an acquaintance I’ve known for three years to help out.
That person was our guide on the days of our trip that overlapped, and on the way back it was late and we had a lot of luggage, so when he was seeing us off to the car, it seems that pictures were taken of the two of us together.
When relationship rumors about me first came out, the reporters asked me about the pictures taken via a phone, and I explained everything, but I understand why they would write sensational headlines like “Hot Relationship Rumors” and how that could cause misunderstandings.
Furthermore, I have been worrying about and discussing my departure with my company for a long time. Even two years ago when we weren’t promoting, they told me to think deeply, so I tried resting for a longer time. In the end, the CEO and I came to an agreement yesterday, and I uploaded my SNS post. Before I uploaded it I shared it with the company, and they even reflected on what I wrote and gave their own opinions on what to delete.
I poured my heart out on SNS yesterday to explain my departure, and I hope my members won’t suffer damage for these controversies that have arisen even after that post. I am sincerely sorry for causing so many people to worry with bad news this early in the morning.
Source: Star News, Choa’s Instagram